Undecided

So I kinda left you guys for a bit lol, but I just don't know what to say anymore I'm kinda speechless tbh I'm so tired of everything like idk what to do anymore, just forgive everyone and not say anything? You know Ashley stopped talking to me, but why should I apologize for her not hanging out with me on birthday? Am I the selfish one or is she? So many questions, but no answers. So there's this guy Gonzalo he's just making me go crazy like literally in so tired of this he hates me I guess so than why is it that he always looks at me and that his bestfriend is always calling me his Girlfirend, but then he doesn't say anything, but then he'll fucking act dude omg idk what to do any more. Jenny idk why I just love her, but she disappointed me so much that I dislike her soo much. Idk why I still talk to her maybe because with her there's no in between there's just she either loves or hates you.

To confront

I am just so tired of everyone stepping on me, but I can't seem to say anything. I love them soo much and I don't want to lose them, but last night I confronted one of my dearest beloved ones and she got so angry we'll call her Ash she's the best, but that fact that she went out all weekend made me angry I mean it was my birthday and she couldn't even come and say happy birthday like wtf? I'm so done with everyone. I guess tweeting that tweet on the picture was fucked up, but I didn't want them to feel pity for me I wanted them to think I didn't care that with our without them I was okey. Because I can't confront them for some reason so maybe just act like I'm okey and happy with or without them.

When we'll be brave enough?

 I'm tired of never being able to speak my mind and trust me when i tell you I speak A LOT. So then I think to myself why can't I stand up to those who I love? I give this image of Idgaf or I'm not scared of anyone .. Is it perhaps we're more scared of those who we love than strangers because we're afraid they'll leave us? 

Birthday

So today is my birthday. Yey me! right ? It wasn't what I expected tbh, but I made up my mind and decided to get this blog. The only good thing that came out of all this